So it’s almost 4 weeks since I had my mastectomy and axillary clearance, it honestly feels like a few days ago. My wounds are healing well, I’m yet to have any excess swelling and I’m working on my stretches everyday to avoid Lymphedema. I must admit the hardest part of the surgery is the numbness I feel in my arm pit, back of my arm & shoulder – it’s an odd feeling and even shaving my armpit is a challenge(which I am yet to do)
In the space of a few weeks I have seen a dietitian who has recently finished her treatment for breast cancer, at age 36 her story seems quite familiar. I take comfort in talking to people who have been through something similar and the advice they can give me is invaluable. From her experience and research she knows what she is talking about, she is a survivor who has had a tough 9 months and I appreciate and value everything she is teaching me. I feel blessed to have found her.
I also had some terrible news..probably even worse than my initial diagnosis of cancer. My dog died. She died the night I had surgery but my family new I wasn’t strong enough to deal with the loss. They were right, I cried for days. I miss my cross-eyed, blonde Bella aka Bellybaloo – she had the ability to make me smile no matter what life was throwing at me. I’m still too upset to think about it, so I will leave it at that. I miss you girl x
So after a few appointments and conversations between my Oncologist and IVF Specialist we have decided to go ahead with Fertility Preservation. Now I’m day 2 of my injections – which I thought I was tough enough to do myself…but “It’s just not natural” to stick a needle in your body! Nik on the other hand is being the best nurse possible. I’m on Tamoxifen which will hopefully protect the breast from the effects of estrogen. On Friday i have an ultrasound to see how I am tracking, fingers crossed something goes our way. This whole process of freezing embryos is intense, I had no idea we had to have Police checks, child protection order checks, counselling sessions, blood tests and the list goes on. We hope that everything can be fast tracked so we can be approved for embryo freezing before it’s time to collect some eggs. Otherwise, another thing has been taken out of our hands…and at the moment that is the hardest part of all this cancer crap. We feel like we have no control…..no time